[When I started writing this post just after the offending day I didn’t expect to have *quite* so much to say! I’m going to publish in two parts because I think it splits quite nicely between home and work life in post sizes which are a bit more in-keeping with my style – I don’t… Read More Musings on functioning labels (AKA a day in the life) – Part 1
I realised I can probably come across quite pessimistic on many issues relating to autistic people. I haven’t been around the autistic ‘scene’ long enough to say I am fed up with how we are ignored and marginalised by those claiming to help us but, nevertheless, I am angry about it. I make no apology… Read More Supporting Autistics
In case you missed it, this week I posted (what I thought were) some fairly innocuous tweets about my struggles at work. These seemed to attract (in my opinion) a fairly unreasonable amount of attention from haters. A long battle ensued. Here are my reflections following the event… It had been a long day, punctuated… Read More Cave Trolls
This weekend has been yet another lost weekend. Lost to meltdown and recovery. I can’t really remember what started it this time. Something about talking through my relationship with my husband that triggered utter meltdown. The thing is, it doesn’t take much to set me over the edge at the moment. Any vague sensory overload,… Read More Long-term Burnout
Today is an ironic day for me to be writing about success. Today I managed a grand total of 90 mins of work before sprinting out from an ongoing meeting on the verge of a meltdown. My shame kept me from returning to then office all day. Tomorrow I will be spending at home to… Read More Ode to Success
It is true what everyone says, diagnosis is just the beginning of the journey. I ran head first into the ‘THIS-IS-AMAZING-this-will-solve-all-my-problems’ camp but now the party there has died. My current state is a bit hard to define. I guess it would be disappointment, with a good dosing of anger and frustration that people haven’t acted… Read More Here’s to hoping.
“Depression is a selfish illness” one of my student leaders at church announced one evening. Spoken like a true saintly, non-sufferer! Thankfully we weren’t discussing my depression at the time nor did she know I suffered but I still felt the accusation. Logically I can see her point but logic doesn’t apply to depression. Now,… Read More Selfish
A bit odd. Not quite normal. Slightly inconsistent. A little off the mark. … It’s funny. I wrote this and accidentally published it. I was going to write more. I came back to it and was terrified when I mistakenly read what I had written as somebody else’s comment on my post. Those phrases cut… Read More Beginnings